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There’s only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time
And I’m running outta things to do to get you off my mind
(Oh)
All I have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face everyday
With you is where I’d rather be
But we’re stuck where we are and it’s so hard
So far, this long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we’re stuck where we are and it’s so hard
So far, this long distance is killing me
It’s so hard
(So hard)
When we are
(When we are)
We’re so far, this long distance is killing me
It’s so hard
(So hard)
When we are
(When we are)
So far, this long distance is killing me
Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days while you’re away
I know right now you can’t be home
But you’re coming home soon, coming home soon
All I have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face again
With you is where I’d rather be
But we’re stuck where we are and it’s so hard
So far, this long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we’re stuck where we are and it’s so hard
So far
Can you hear me crying?
(Ooh)
Can you hear me crying?
(Ooh)
Can you hear me crying?
(Ooh)
With you is where I’d rather be
But we’re stuck where we are and it’s so hard
So far, this long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we’re stuck where we are and it’s so hard
So far, it’s so hard
(So hard)
When we are
(When we are)
We’re so far this long distance is killing me
It’s so hard
(So hard)
When we are
(When we are)
So far, this long distance is killing me
There’s only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time.
i miss you bee. another bruno mars song i recently heard of. this long distance is really killing me >.< just the hope of you coming home soon makes me feel the fire in me still. i know i’ve not been updating you since year of the dinosaurs but nothing has really changed much. i’m still me. waiting in vain. kidding. waiting patiently. i know sometimes that a lot of thoughts, thoughts that don’t favor me, keep bothering you but as i’ve said, quit the habit of doubting. it won’t do any good. everytime you’d feel bad, just think of our happy days. that’s what i usually do when i miss you. i’m really sorry for making you feel the way you’re feeling right now. you can always confide your feelings and secrets just like before. i’m sorry too for making you feel alone at times. whenever you need me, i am more than willing to be there for you anyway. with the hardships i am in right now, i’m sorry if i am letting it creep into what we have. i’ll try to be stronger this time. my faith keeps on wavering nowadays so please understand me for which i know you’re doing. let’s just keep this in mind always, let’s not allow other people and other things to get between us okay? we’ll make it through. iloveyou and take care always. mwah! :*
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October 1, 2011 - 40th day (saturday)
currently listening to When God Made You. seems the lyrics were made to describe how i feel about you. read between the lines bee.
Its always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i’ve never been so sure of anything in my life
Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.
Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I’ll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I’ll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
So gone are all my questions about why and i’ve never been so sure of anything in my life
Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you He must’ve been thinking about me.
He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can’t do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know it’s true,
Your for me and i’m for you and my world
Just can’t be right without you in my life
Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.
He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying. He must’ve knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must’ve been thinking about me.
every time i listen to this song, i end up crying. i know we’ve been through a lot and we’ll still be having more of them but know that i’ll always be by your side and not leaving you. i may not call you neither text you all the time but whatever happens, nothing will ever change how i feel about you. you are always in my daily thoughts and prayers. you may doubt me, please do. but never doubt how much i love and value you. i’m reminding you again that the yza you have left in cdeo will still be the same yza when you’ll come back. i want nothing more but your love alone. just endure for the time being because sooner or later, we’ll be together again. i’ll continue to secretly support, comfort and cheer for you. i know we can make it to the end, contrary to what most people think. and about last night, i might had fun, laugh hard but i have never lost thought of you. i may have enjoyed myself as what you wished me to be but remember that having fun and making moments memorable are best if it’s with you. my happiness with you is simply incomparable. i love you bee.
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AUGUST 30, 2011 - 8th day (tuesday)
last day of the two days extended vacation. i did what i had promised. i regretted not being able to answer your call bee. i was about to pick it up then i fell asleep again. i had rested well today. i’m finally feeling better. i ate a lot today and just watched city hunter. i also started playing sims. i was supposed to review for my midterm exam for MedTrans. haha. well, i was not able to do that. :p
you were so busy today. glad you were able to call by midnight. if not, i would have drowned myself with my tears of regrets. err. this is one of the days i don’t have much to do that makes me talk less.
AUGUST 31, 2011 - 9th day (wednesday)
woke up at the wrong side of the bed. but i was relieved hearing your voice while i was on my way to school. thanks. i was just in time for exam. woah! exam was really hard. i was able to answer but there are few items that i was uncertain of my answers. that’s what i got from not reviewing. i know. i’ll do better next time. :)
today, i get to enjoy myself. i ate a lot and had spent time with friends. i reached home late like 8:30pm but it was all worth it. day ended with a single call. though you told me you’d review for your upcoming exam about that board we saw at SPC way back 2nd year, i knew you’d just sleep all night. and i was right. haha! but i’m happy hearing you did well both written and oral. congrats bee! :)
SEPTEMBER 1, 2011 - 10th day (thursday)
i had to wake up early today. i was on time for ER duty. i was assigned to be the team leader today so i get to just supervise my groupmates all throughout the 8-hour duty. i went home early after duty too because it was raining hard. about the shoes, i already bought one. haha! my laughing shoes are gone. my new pair is better. i’m comfortable moving around compared to last time. i enjoyed commenting on alona’s album. i saw your name with ate beth, manang and kuya jojo when you were younger. you were so thin back then. i almost didn’t recognize you. you look better now with all the fats. hehe :p
i just had bread and bihon for dinner. my appetite wasn’t that good. i was worried today since you didn’t call and there were no even text messages. i can’t even connect to your line. for about hours i was waiting and almost fell asleep. i just knew you had orals and when you told me about the “sleepy sir sleepy story”, i was really laughing hard. i remembered all the nonsense stories we talked about before like the scrutch and the hiking. i missed laughing with you and i miss you tickling me to death after every joke. i just want you to know bee that i purposely stayed up late not for any other reason but to wait for your call. you don’t have to worry about me. just do your best there. thanks for greeting me early. you’re the first to literally greet me like you said. you don’t have to be sorry about not being here and not being able to give me something. i won’t exchange your love and your everyday efforts for any other gifts. your love is more than enough to suffice for your absence.
SEPTEMBER 2, 2011 - 11th day (friday)
last duty for ER bee. i had real fun today. we played pinoy henyo, spelling bee and pants. i laughed hard all throughout the duty. i just had pizza for lunch bee. i ate 4 slices of Hawaiian pizza today. i’ll wait for your call later. you just texted few times today. are you that busy? i just finished watching city hunter bee. i’ll take a bath in a bit. tomorrow, we’ll have no duty or ward class but i won’t leave because i have to finish my assignments for next week. i’ll be having 8-5pm review by sunday. i won’t be able to go to church by then. that’s sad. i’ll be back later and blog again so you’ll be able to read something during your free time okay? be good. eat well tonight. iloveyouasalways. :)
p.s sorry for this compilation when i promised to do it daily. i was a bit busy and a bit lazy. hehe. take care then. mwah! :*
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AUGUST 29, 2011 - 7th day (monday)
beebeelove. i woke up late this morning feeling all tired. i had some things to attend to last night for a friend (don’t worry, it was all wholesome. i’ll tell you when you’d call me again) if it hadn’t for your call, i might have woke up later than that. hearing you tell me that we’re left with few months makes me feel relieved and happy though in fact we are still in our first month of being away. we aren’t even in the quarter of it all.
i know. i’m not diverting the firsthand issue. sorry. i won’t be staying up late tonight. as i have promised, i’ll wake up early tomorrow. i’ll try sit ups and stretching too so i could get rid of all these unwanted fats. heheh. i tried standing up after meals as what you have advised me. not long, i’ll be able to see the effects. you should keep up with your exercises too. bee, i just had my fill. wish you had yours too.
i’m done with my jeep assignment but not with CP for our GCS. i’m partially productive today. what keeps you busy now? i’m watching city hunter as of the moment. i know you’ll be scolding me again for wasting my time watching all these koreanovelas. just let this slip okay? i won’t be watching them when wednesday comes anyway. my not-so-good schedule will be back after the holidays. midterm exams will be next next week either. i won’t have much time to waste. heheh.
i forgot to thank you for the pictures. though they’re not all intended for my eyes. seriously, when i first saw them after you called me, i felt sad and cried. i really missed you seeing your recent pictures. later on, i was happy that finally, my worries about you not being able to adjust well have bid me goodbye. i’m happy seeing you doing good. seeing you smile and laugh naturally, it makes me glad. it warms my heart. sorry for the way i talk. i seem to get along with the phrases. maybe this is the negative effect of watching too much korean dramas. hahah. am i tiring you now? at least, i can lure you away from the thought of all-day work. because of this daily report blog project, i’m giving you privilege to freely miss me all day. heheh. i’m really bad in copying your conceited tactics eh? you seem to be the master of that technique when you effortlessly tell me everyday that you got me head over heels. hahah! hell yeah, it’s true but sometimes can’t you just not keep it to yourself? kidding. i gotta stop here bee. i’m starting to talk-all-i-can now. i sense it being not good. heheh. head to your bunk now and rest okay? you’re not superman any how. fighting! loveyou! zzz
p.s i don’t know until when i can keep up with this daily report blog project sprinkled with love of mine but i’ll do it every night i’m free. this can keep my attention focused on enriching this long distance relationship we have and at the same time, i can reflect on my life too. see bee? i think this can do me good. hitting two birds with one stone. i’m really bad at lifetime projects but i’ll try to finish this project until you come home :)
you are always remembered. don’t forget that. mwah! mwah! and mwah! :)
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Hi bee. I am starting to blog again. You’ll be updated then from the day you left and onwards. I’ll try to be less lazy this time. :)
AUGUST 23, 2011 (tuesday)
beebeelove. this was the day you left for coron, palawan. you texted me 8 in the morning that you’ll be arriving after a day. you also updated me about your duty hours and told me about your vacant time.
i felt bad because i had flu. was even half awake during our jeep class. that was rude of me but i couldn’t do anything about it. i tried to fight back but my body was too weak. night came and so with my fever. ‘twas 38.2, became 38.5. i slept early due to body malaise. you called me once that day, just in the morning.
AUGUST 24, 2011 (wednesday)
beebeelove. i was absent today. you called me up and asked how i was feeling. we talked for a short period of time and you hung up because you were just sneaking for a call in the first place. you texted me to be well and to eat too. i slept all day , sniffed all day, coughed all day and cried all day because i was missing your care. even if it was gross, you used to wipe my nose with your hanky and you used to fetch me water from the fridge every time you hear me cough. you used to feed me every time i lose my appetite and you always tuck me to sleep in my bed, hug me tight and send me to dreamland then wake me up to drink my meds. i missed all that. i’ll be waiting for you bee. so you could do them all again.
AUGUST 25, 2011 (thursday)
beebeelove. i skipped duty because i was still sick but with no fever anymore. you’re heading back to Manila again. you called again but still just for a few minutes. ‘twas just to check for me. i’m grateful that you always took time to call me though you barely text me. updating me everyday is more than enough. thanks. i planned have my duty tomorrow so that i won’t feel more weird. i slept early that day and you didn’t call me back since there was no signal.
AUGUST 26, 2011 (friday)
beebeelove. i was up early. took a bath early too and i felt fresh. i fear i might have fever again but i still went to CUMC-ER. i was lonely and alone in my ride. i wish you were there to send me to the hospital. by then, i’d have somebody to talk to and somebody to lean on. ‘twas cold since it was still 6 in the morning. when i arrived, i felt better seeing my groupmates. we chatted long enough until our clinical instructor arrived. there were few patients who had minor complaints and we attended to their needs. during our vacant time, we played games. it helped me a lot to be more energetic and so not to feel burdened by my tons of works undone. before i went home after duty, i passed by jollibee and got myself a meal then headed home. i slept for a while then you called and i felt great. lol you’re my own brand of antibiotic you know. har!
AUGUST 27, 2011 (saturday)
beebeelove. i woke up and you called me for a while. i watched boys over flowers again just to kill the time. i left home by 3 in the afternoon and spent time with mama, papa and mama’s three SAs’ in the faculty. i helped cutting letterings for accreditation requirements. then we left for limketkai mall. i bought sandals from spruce and we ate at KFC as usual. mama said that if you were there with us, you might have sat beside me. she asked me then that, if you ever missed eating dinner with us. do you bee? i wonder too. hehe. i know you’re tired. you left a message that you woke up 2 in the morning and just had dinner. i wish i was there to take care of you too. :(
AUGUST 28, 2011 (sunday)
beebeelove. it’s today. you didn’t call me today. your unli call expired last night. it was my turn now. hearing your voice makes me feel happy. and when i hung up, as you asked me if i’d call again, i felt happier. :) anyways, i went to church with mama and papa today. you missed it. the service, the praise and worship. it was superb. i felt alive after the service bee. it was really AWE-some. i was in AWE there. then, we had lunch at gerry’s grill. their food isn’t that good compared to cafe laguna’s but it was fine nevertheless. we headed home late in the afternoon since i was tired already and mama has a lot of work to do. the surge of people coming IN the mall was really annoying too. it made the mall’s atmo bad. up until now, i’m facing the pc, looking at your pictures and listening to mellow korean music. if you were here, i know you’d scold me for wasting my time listening to things i don’t even understand.
i’ll be heading to my bed now, okay? i’ll resume tomorrow. just stuff yourself with these info’s first. i’ll fill them up sooner or later anyway. i’m missing you a lot now and i’m still loving you more and more each day. better than every yesterday too. i’ll be listening to growing old with you later before i sleep and finally, to our recorded conversations until i reach dreamland. sleep well tonight. you’ve got a long day ahead tomorrow bee and also, grab the opportunity while you can still rest. ‘til then beebeelove. iloveyousomuch.
p.s don’t worry about me. i’m fine. i’ll be waiting until the crabs learn to fly. won’t be looking for somebody else anyway. i won’t settle for less. you’re the best. mwah!